Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Hey peeps,
well it has been an interesting week for me i guess.on sunday went to boy's town for the carnival and talk about utter boredom!! lols couldn't even spend my 10 bucks worth of tickets there!! that was how sucky the whole thing was...basically just spent my time walking around. For the first time i had 3 whole bunches of friends with me that i ran around for.First my Sec 5 friends(aarone and javis only!! how pathetic is that!!),john's bunch of merrymen which included ppl like ronin. jerome, hazel, thinaesh and damian(ellen too of course) and also church ppl as well. bumped into cousin maryanne there too and i really should not have said that she was related to me cos thinaesh and jerome kept asking me to give her number to them.....anyways left with Javis and Aarone at around 1 plus and headed off to cathay to watch a movie and it was.......TROPIC THUNDER!! seriously that is one funny ass show lol so much vulgarities thrown into a 1 and a half hour packed with laughs...anyway after that went home and basically just did nothing...
Monday lessons were boring as usual, don't really remember much of the day though...anyway at night went to charge my phone for quite a while then i got a whole host of calls from all sorts of ppl but 3/4 were bxh members and a message from keith. called him and got the news that terence was leaving for Thailand the next day plus the whole of bxh except madi was going to stay at the airport to lepak with him for 1 last time b4 going off....in mind of my accounts CA the next day i at first didnt want to go but knowing that this is going to be the last time i see terence until one more year made it harder to ignore.So i pack my things and made my way to JE mrt to meet the guys...took mrt to tanah merah and arrived just when the last train to the airport left...talk about timing anyway we took a cab to the airport in the end which cost 10 bucks.okay i will update the rest tmr i need to sleep been feeling really sloppy of late

6:25 AM N

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Hey here again....
well today was abit messed up for me...this morning i reacted quite badly to some comments jun hong made and i am sorry for that...i guess all thats been happening finally took its toll on me but at least i apologised and everythings okay again...in the aftermath of that however i need some time alone which is me sitting to 1 side just listening to songs...i kinda broke down when i heard Warmness On The Soul by Avenged Sevenfold when really describes my situation and whats worse was that i had a accounts mock test the following period..anyway managed to do okay for it but i screwed up my trading p and l thing so ya....
school ended at 115 today when it was supposed to end at 2(i just remembered i have to do an assignment to be able to step into class)so went home the usual way..on the way home it started to rain,not the light drizzle or whatever but really full on rain!!tried to hang out at the bus stop till the rain stopped but it didnt so i took a cab home which was a total waste of $3.80...
went home auntie marina told me she is going back on the 14th of this month at 245pm so i think i will skip school to see her off....w/o her life really won't be the same

5:55 AM N

Monday, November 3, 2008

Hey back again....guess i have been in the mood to blog recently....terribly bored at home..

Well went for connect session after a long time finally on sunday and i have to admit i feel pretty distant from them..i guess it was because i spent sundays with my band friends for such a long time that we didnt feel close anymore...to think it was so different about 7 months ago and how everything has just changed plus for the first time in 7 months i feel so alone...i mean i always had my friends with me alot but now i feel like with one decision everything was just taken from me...i do regret i times but what am i supposed to do?? cry bout it ?? i made it and i am sticking to it...anyway the rest of sunday did nothing but watch HEROES!!! Whole 8 hours of nothing but heroes!can't wait for the 3rd season to start:) and with a new season of HEROES comes another chance to see HAYDEN PANETIERE!! haha i have no idea why i got such a big crush on her!! anyways went to school yesterday(btw i am just updating a draft haha) feeling pretty okay...for only a handful of times this term i didnt sleep at all at class...the only reason for that is becos the CA starts next week and i really need to get my GPA up if i want to even stand a chance of getting into a POLY...all those CCA answers came in the morning when me, omar ,yaya, zana and fizah got called to the staff room to attend a meeting when the ppl in charge of some seminar thing. i kinda got scared when they said this was intense overseas thing that is going to last until june of next year. well i guess this kills any hope i had of getting a job cos if i did it would mean i had 5 things to handle. anyway i am just rambling on about nothing in particular i'll see you guys soon

3:37 AM N

Saturday, November 1, 2008

hey guys
well, been an interesting week for me i must say...too many things happening at once...and i don't know whether i will be able to cope with all this..
anyway auntie marina is going back for good probably in 2 weeks time...which is a big blow to me considering she was like a mother to me and now that my mum has already moved means it is just the 2 guys left in the house....and that is going to be pretty hard for me cos i guess i will be doing all the cleaning and stuff considering my dad doesn't do anything in the house...i dont think many ppl know what this is doing to me...cos i try not to show and not that i have many friends who even give a shit about me anyway so ya....its been really hard having to juggle all these responsibilities..i even am thinking bout getting a job again which will be straining on me even more considering i will have to take on school,work, music and house work all at the same time..if worse comes to worse i guess i will quit music and just carry on with my mundane life but if it means that i will be able to support myself than so be it..what was i thinking ever getting into a band again..it brought me personal satisfaction yes but also where can i go with this thing?? will we ever make it big in singapore?? maybe.... but not likely...keith told me last time if you believe in music just go for it...i have and i have failed, i have made decisions that might not bring me to where i want to in music so maybe i should just forget bout this whole thing and just GIVE UP.
But me quiting music is just one scenario there are others but i really dont want to type this out cos it will only end up making me even more depressed
as for right now i just want to be left alone....

11:21 AM N

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

You Make My Head Spin...WHY WHY??

Hey guys Back to update finally....
i have been pretty busy these past few days with school and stuff...anyway Friday went to AVENGED SEVENFOLD in concert!!
It was great!! but kinda short though and we still had a good time watching them perform....anyway i dont want to elaborate on what happened b4 the gig cos alot of details that have to be put in...went back at about 12 plus so ya...thats all for that day
The next day woke up at about 12 i went to town to watch Blindfold Hero and Her Silent Wish perform at The Arts House Playden both of them were great though Bear had to sing for BXH cos keith went to AVENGED and had a sore throat so could not sing 3 songs but they were still pretty good and HSW had problems with the Mic plus the idiot manning the PA had a problem with Is and the way he was jumping around stage which was pretty cool...anyway after the show i smsed hilmi asking him whether he could learn one more song for our next session...however one thing led to another and then he smsed saying he wants to stop music....
Part of me just wants to release all my anger against him and tell him off but the other part told me that i have to let him go cos he really hasnt been feeling really good already for the past couple of months and him leaving the band was kinda envitable so i really couldnt blame him so i just let him go and by doing that means there is only me and john left......
Anyway that is most of the details i want to give...the rest will just have to rest with me

i'll see you guys soon....

8:26 PM N

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Hey People!
it's been a very long time since i posted an entry on this dead blog. But anyway its been a very interesting 4 months of my life with my band and stuff, but it seemed like the band caused more than 90% of my problems....it eventually lead to my band closing...not to sound like an asshole i already knew this would happen from the start the only thing was when it will start screwing up. people i trusted started acting f**ked up in front of my very eyes so eventually eveything fell apart which leaves me now dazed and confused...now we are restarting(me,john and hilmi)again,things are still blurry for me cos i still have doubts on whether what happened these past months will happen again but if there was anything i learnt in the past months is that i shouldn't expect too much because eventually something will happen that will throw the whole thing off so i am taking this one step at a time. anyway just got back my GPA for the first term and i got a 3.0 which is not so bad but i need to do well in my next 3 terms in order to even be able to register for a poly so i need to buck up in the next 1 and 1/2 years
well thats all for now theres so much more i want to say but it will take me the whole day to type out for you guys so i'll see ya when i see ya.....

8:50 PM N

Monday, May 19, 2008

yo again! OA as boring as ever ,tired as hell and sporting aching legs.becos of 2.4 la !fat boys are never meant to run! i swear if i had a 10 cent coin for every fat boy who does not like running i will be millionaire.a moment of awkward silence later.......
anyway later having jamming for the 31st may gig feeling the stress, i dont noe i hav played a few school shows but there is something sbout an open show that scares me. i think it is because your band's outside reputation is put on the line during the whole 30 min or 45 min set. it would help if i had my friends to support but i feel they run away when ever i needed them the most.hence the term fair weathered aquiantenses which john came up with, on the 10th may gig it left me thinking, do i have any friends. comforting words from others filled my ear for the past 2 weeks but i cant help but think if that is true, at least i still have gcp if not i really don't noe how to unleash all my stress.i hope todays jamming session will help me just to relax these nerves and just let out all of my stress from school,love and just everything!!! have not felt really good these days just confused about what i am going to do, maybe i should just keep quiet and let the life i have b4 me pass by w/o caring.but w/o these moments i would nvr have the inspiration to write more songs. but as i sit here imagining the ending of this i just wonder was it meant to be or is something else planned out for me that is the question i really need to ask myself. hope listening to a happy song would cheer me up (9 in the afternoon playing in my phone now) anyway saturday went to see nep jam for their gig the next day at home club, after that(with all the ringing in my ears) we went to eat at burger king to eat and discuss about our next gig at mg(music garage) on the 31st and 6th the worst thing is that we have to get another drummer to play for us during the 6th june gig cos marius going back to philipinnes for a short while so we are hoping to get muddy from mmc to play for us which may not be a problem.then went to starbucks and lepak there for a short while with bear, isa, ameer,bruce,mj, stix ,john and ahmad until about 12 then cabbed home with the usual ppl.

the next day went to watch nep play at home club. frigging 17 bucks to get in sia!!! expensive like crazy but anything for nep ya!! the gig was great,ellen super power with her vocals!! Reach was my favourite but the rest great as well.bear and isa as usual great with their guitar work and ameer with his bass and back up vox great and bruce on drums as usual to his beating best!! anyway after that went across the bridge to hang out with nep-ellen and fino and is of her silent wish, john as well stayed until the mrning and took the first bus home anyway OA just ended update later. see ya!!

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