Saturday, November 1, 2008

hey guys
well, been an interesting week for me i must say...too many things happening at once...and i don't know whether i will be able to cope with all this..
anyway auntie marina is going back for good probably in 2 weeks time...which is a big blow to me considering she was like a mother to me and now that my mum has already moved means it is just the 2 guys left in the house....and that is going to be pretty hard for me cos i guess i will be doing all the cleaning and stuff considering my dad doesn't do anything in the house...i dont think many ppl know what this is doing to me...cos i try not to show and not that i have many friends who even give a shit about me anyway so ya....its been really hard having to juggle all these responsibilities..i even am thinking bout getting a job again which will be straining on me even more considering i will have to take on school,work, music and house work all at the same time..if worse comes to worse i guess i will quit music and just carry on with my mundane life but if it means that i will be able to support myself than so be it..what was i thinking ever getting into a band again..it brought me personal satisfaction yes but also where can i go with this thing?? will we ever make it big in singapore?? maybe.... but not likely...keith told me last time if you believe in music just go for it...i have and i have failed, i have made decisions that might not bring me to where i want to in music so maybe i should just forget bout this whole thing and just GIVE UP.
But me quiting music is just one scenario there are others but i really dont want to type this out cos it will only end up making me even more depressed
as for right now i just want to be left alone....

11:21 AM N